So, I'm finally in DC!! Something I was so excited for 3 months ago, but for the last 4 days have nothing but dreaded. It seemed like one thing after another just had to go wrong--my digital camera needs to be sent in for repairs, overweight luggage, not starting up the internship search in the way I wanted...it seemed to be an endless attempt to make this a trip from hell (or at a few seldom, very bad times, the trip to hell). Then I finally get here and wrangle with my luggage, settle in to this crappy temporary apartment and I manage to use the Metro right, but get myself so unbelievably lost on the way to my apartment, it was horrible. I had to call my mom later, and I just cried...if given the chance, I would have taken the next flight home.
So I sat and wallowed over my miserable day, took a hot shower and cried some more. But then afterward, I told myself, I can't do this. I've been looking forward to this trip for so long and I'm not going to sit here and let it pass me by. I'm going out, seeing new things and new places, and I'm going to meet new people, because damn it all if I don't enjoy it, I'm letting the other side win. The other side that doesn't want me to succeed, to consider moving away from home and wants me to stay in that small town for the rest of my life...there's nothing wrong with it, but for right now, I know I need this. I need a ticket out there, even if only for a short while because I've still got a lot left to prove. I miss SNC terribly right now but the best lesson it taught me was how strong I really am.
I'll finish this night vegging out, and all I can hope for is that tomorrow's a little better.
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